Big ole smile on my face today. What a great night I had. McScotty came over for a little dinner and movie action. I realized yesterday that even though it had only been 4 days since I had last seen him, I kind of missed that guy! :) We had a wonderful, relaxing evening. The more time I get to spend with him, the more I really like this one. Which puts me in a precarious situation...what do I do about these other gents? More and more I am finding myself much less interested in "exploring other options" which really freaks me out. To add to my freaked out state, McScotty poured his heart out to me last night and told me he was pretty much "falling for me pretty hard". Normally I'd be running for the hills at this point, but it was actually quite endearing. He probably didn't find my complete silence endearing, but I just can't quite put into words my feelings...not yet. I'll keep those cards pretty darn close to my chest for a long time.
He also shared me with that he finds himself in a position he's never been in: he's realized I am able to hurt him. Ummm, what? He elaborated on that and told me that since he was "falling for me" he's vulnerable to me hurting him. Again, freaked me out a little, but also pretty darn awesome he was able to actually tell me this. Although it does put a little pressure on me which I can't say I am crazy about. Again, playing the cards close to my chest. And he knows that. He appreciates that. I did tell him I can understand his feelings but he is going to have to patient with me. I am not there yet. I can see myself getting there with him, but not yet. For god's sake it's only been a few weeks since we've met. I am certainly not going to make the mistake again of putting my heart in front of my head.
Like I said though, the more and more I get to know him, the more and more I like him...a lot. Oh the dilema. This is not how I envisioned my "post divorce dating around" going. But, I really kind of like where things are. :)
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